So last night at around 2am, I happened to check one of my class's syllabus and to my astonishment found out I had a midterm in the morning in about 8 hrs. Needless to say, I panicked and shouted various sorts of curse words upon my discovery.
Guess I won't be getting my beauty rest after all.
So I basically had to cram in what remaining hrs I had left, while still trying to get as much sleep as I could. I couldn't pull an all-nighter because I had crap to do the next day and I knew I would be too tired to concentrate on those things due to lack of sleep. So I crammed. And I crammed. Till around 5 am came and I really had to go to sleep. I figured I would get up around 8 am and study a little more before the test (my test was at 10:30). Naturally, I got up around 9 instead and by this time, I really was cramming. Luckily, this was one of easier classes, so I wasn't too worried by the time I entered the classroom.
You know what I found out 5 min later? Yes, that's right. NO midterm today. Midterm will be next week he said. MOTHERF@#$&%^($!!!! Thanks, professor. Thanks for making the last 8 hrs such a delight for me in this trying time. Sigh...
So yeah. No midterm. I suppose I should feel relieved and grateful. And I am. For the most part.
I'm beginning to realize just how cyclical and mundane my life really is. It's like the same thing over and over again. And you would think that I'm tired of it. But the truth is, I'm used to it. I've been conditioned and molded, by my teachers, by my parents, by freakin' society basically to do the things you are required to do to what is it? "Have a good life"? "Secure your long term future"?
I'm not saying you shouldn't get a good education. Because I've seen the statistics. I've heard and seen the facts. I know the importance of a good education. I wanna have a good life. For me and possibly a family in the future. But sometimes I wish I could be someone else. I wish I could stop doing the same things everyday. I wish I step in someone else's shoes for once and see what that's like. Just for a day. To experience what they experience on a daily basis.
What is it really like to scale huge mountains for a living? Or get paid to play a sport that you love? Is being a rock star truly as awesome as it sounds? Even doing small things like working in a coffee shop. Or fixing cars. Or owning a restaurant. These are all things I have never experienced. And probably never will. But wouldn't it be fun and a hell of a lot more exciting just to see if I could?
What are some of your ""desires" or things you wish you could experience?
Man I am hungry. And that was a long post, sorry for that haha.
Talk to you later.
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1 comment:
I read your twitter about the midterm...and that kind of happened to me too T.T I hated myself and the teacher who changed the date of the test. But hey, at least you have more time to prepare than what you just did.
Oh I'm behind you on this one. I hate that everything is going in circles mostly everyday and I just wish I can do something different. I don't even do the things I once did, such as playing volleyball and working on those spikes or attempted to learn how to sing and maybe start my songs...it's one of those days where you feel the need to get out of what you've been doing and start doing something that you wouldn't do at all. I'm also used to what I've been up to, so it's not like I can complain, but like you said, try to be in someone's shoes for once and see their outlook on things. Are they any different or similar? Is this something I can see myself doing for the rest of my life? Things like that.
However, there are some I wish I could have done that wouldn't have me do things in repetition like right now. I'm just lazy to start it off.
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